Friday, February 27, 2015

Why hello there

Well I figure I finally better post something.
This came to me today.....
I rely far too much on people, when I should be relying on Christ even more.
Far too often, people will let you down. They'll stop loving you. But Christ? He will NEVER leave or forsake you, & He will NEVER stop loving you. I need to remember that.
When I struggle in life, I find myself always running to people. Which is not necessarily wrong to do. But when I do struggle, I should first & foremost find myself on my knees, crying out to God.
Sometimes God will speak through someone to me, which is always awesome.
When trials hit, I need to be praying & reading His word, preparing myself for battle, putting on the full armor of God. Do I? No. Sad to say. When I don't, satan grabs a hold of me, and throws me all around. Why? Because I didn't stand firm. I didn't try to win. Instead, I failed. I failed b.c I wasn't on my knees, I wasn't preparing for battle.
Often times, when trials hit me, I either just let them come over me & eat me alive, or I run to tell someone, hoping THEY will help. Which again, isn't wrong, but I don't see myself running to Christ. I don't see myself trying to defeat this, in which I can't do it alone, but I don't even try. What happens, is because I've beat myself up, & let satan keep at it, I get driven off the deep end, start rejecting to read the bible, and start feeling guilty to pray, that it drives me insane that I let this happen to myself, that I don't know what to do after that!
But guess what? God does

During my different trials, it's like I've told God 'I can handle this on my own'. Ha! Yeah right Hay. Not in your life!! 
Finally after I've beaten myself up enough, it's like something slaps me across the face & I realize I've done something wrong. By Gods amazing grace, He pulls me out, brushes me off, and sets me on my feet again. The amazing thing is, is that through all of that, He still loves me. What?! Are you serious?! After I've rejected Him, after I've told Him I know better, after being a total jerk, He still loves & cares for me?? 
How amazing. where was I going with this.......
We often tell God we know better. We don't truly rely on Him. When He knows faaaaarrrrr better than we EVER could. Thing is, He puts us through trials for a reason. One being to show that we CANNOT do it alone!

"(9) But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (10) For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
{2 Corinthians 12:9-10}

Oh how I wish I could be like Paul in verse 10. But I am not there yet. I'm glad God takes me through trials to teach me, but I need to be content AND joyful that He does it out of love for me.

"But God being rich in mercy because of the great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses made us alive together with Christ, by grace you have been saved."
{Ephesian 2:4-5}

God sometimes just blows me away. He is amazing.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow!